SHOULD I ASK FOR YOUR GUIDING LJGHT,
ALWAYS YOU'RE BEING THERE,BY MY SIDE!
HAD I BEEN A FRIGHTENED WOMAN,
NOT AFRAID ANYMORE,
BECAUSE OF YOU!
YOU GAVE ME DIRECTION,
THE WAY TO HEAVEN OPEN WIND,
BECAUSE OF YOU!
DEAR,SWEET,BELOVED IN WHICHEVER IMAGINABLE WAY,
BRIGHTEST ANGEL OF HEAVEN,
GUIDING LIGHT OF MY LIFE,
MY HEART IS CRUMBLING AND REASSEMBLING,
ALL AT THE SAME TIME,
BECAUSE OF YOU,ONLY FOR YOU,
YOU AND ONLY YOU!
YOU'RE THE UNIQUE PERSON ABOARD VESSEL EARTH THAT GAVE ME THE CHANCE TO EXPERIENCE AN OVERWHELMING SENSATION!
I WAS TOSSED INTO THE DEEPEST ABYSS,DOWN DEEP TO THE DENSE DARKNESS
ONLY TO BE FLINGED BACK TO THE STRATOSPHERE AND MORE,
INTO A BROADENED UNIVERSE,
WITHIN THE BRIGHTEST'S SUN LIGHT!
SIMPLY BECAUSE OF YOU!
THANK YOU !!!
I LOVE YOU !!!
Light of our lives,
the sun in front of you so tiny,so pale!
Angel,how blessed I am you let me live the days with you!
Painful the separation,for we're one another's part.
To walk on this land,only for your sake,l do.
The Heaven is yours,so it is mine,too.
Have I the right to lose it?
I''ll be waiting the blessed day to join you,
and until then,
your beautiful face,
your amazing presence will be my guide!
I'll love you, always!!!.
LOVING YOU IS MY TASK,
LOVING YOU IS MORE THAN I HAVE ASKED'
SUCH A SWEET TASK, WANTED, NEEDED,
SOMEHOW I NEED TO FEEL THE VOID YOU LEFT,
AM I THE SELFISH OR ARE YOU?
DID YOU CONSIDER WHOM YOU LEFT BEHIND,
YOU LEFT,THE LAND OF ANGELS TO VISIT,
THE UNIVERSE TO JOIN,
HIS PROMISE YOU FULFILLED.
THE PROPER TIME WAS THE THURSDAY,
THE LOVELY THURSDAY,THE ENVIOUS ONE,
SHE CLAIMED YOU,SHE TOOK YOU!
SHOULDN'T SHE HAVE ASKED BEFORE?
SHE TOOK YOU!
CLAIMED HIM AND EARNED HIM! SO WHAT?
YOU THOUGHT YOU'VE GAINED A WHOLE PLANET'S TEAR AND SORROW!
OH,YES! YOU DID! FOR A SHORT,SHORT WHILE,
YOU'RE NOT GOING TO BE THE DAY OF SORROW,
INSTEAD A DAY OF GLORY AND JOY YOU BECOME!
IN YOUR ARMS,THE FIRST,THE MASTER,THE GENERAL,
THE KING OF HEARTS,
IN YOUR ARMS THE SUN,THE MOON,THE PURE LIGHT,
IN YOUR ARMS THE DOMINATOR OF MY HEART!
BLESS YOU BE,CRUEL 25TH JUNE,
YOU TOOK THE BEST,THE GREATEST,
YOU GAVE US BACK THE ANGEL!
BLESS YOU,FOR NOW I HAVE NOTHING TO FEAR,
NOT EVEN DEATH,
IT'S FIRST OF ANGELS TO RECEIVE,
MY SOUL,MY SISTER AND MY BROTHER SOUL,
MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON
AND THE WORLD ARE ONE!
ONE HEART,ONE SOUL,ONE MIND,ONE BREATH,
ONE LOVE,ONLY AND SIMPLY ONE!
MJ,I LOVE YOU!
How many times have I jumped through controversial emotions during this past year! Once happy,just to fall into sadness the very next moment,desperation,then come back to joy again,LOVE in my heart as vast as the entire universe.......and more....more....more.......!!!!!!!
The flashback of my life came to my mind the last few days,recalling memories!!! My so-called-progress and evolution,almost parallel to Michael's.With a slight difference! He was 8 years older than me,I love calling him my older brother! Parallel,only to the point I was leading a life at the same era with him,I had the privelege to have lived along with him! So-called,cause Michael evolved to being the perfect,progressed,while I got stuck !
In 1987,two weeks before he started his BAD TOUR, me,I was getting married! So,what's news here?Who cares? I,for starters,do.Michael,I think he would.That's the flashback or better, now's the time for me to realise what has happened back then!
What is Michael's legacy? '''''What is not?''''''-is the proper question! His music,his art,his life,messages,messages,messages!
My sweet Michael,I can clearly remember far before BAD ERA,you shaking the world.Before,after and always the world trembled to the rhythm of your feet!I loved your music,your lyrics,your moves ,your smile,your eyes..
My sweet,sweetest man,I had put you to the background of my life-if you can call it life-it was just existing,not living!Years and years have passed through,you leading your smashing musical life,hits after hits,a lonely life up at the top,troubled by people who hated see you happy! No one had the right,noone should have ever touched you or make you hurt!Still,it happened!
And all these years,where was I? The day you left this planet I experienced feelings unknown to me!The absolute separation!I had never thought it existed!A separation I will never feel again!Ever since that day,my primar thought is you!
I knew exactly what has happened to me that day,from the very first second.But,it had to take me a year to realise why I get sad thinking 1987,sadder even than the thought of your departure.
Why is that?Is it because I had a crash on you and then by commiting myself to another man,I betrayed you?No,that is not the case.I mean,I did had a crash on you,how would I help it afterall,you the perfection!!!
The thing that's killing me is that I was so immature back then to understand what you were telling me through your songs!So many messages,which year by year where even wiser.You,guided by God,I had to grasp that one message back then. I should have understood better!I had to act like myself,fight for a better me,a better world,be brave,stand up for my beliefs,my ideals.Instead,I chose the road of jail.I willingly imprisoned myself into the cage of non-myself-appreciation,putting my real self to the background!Luck of self-esteem,luck of maturness!I put you in the background,oh,how wrong was I!
I suppose I had taken you for granted!You were there!Every time I took a glimpse of you,I could clearly see the glow around you,your halo!I couldn't understand then,I know now.I wasn't the one connected to you,I was simply a sheep lost,seeking for it's true identity!You were connected with me,yet,I had to lose you,to find out!
''YOU'RE JUST ANOTHER PART OF ME'':the words spoke the ultimate truth.I and all those who see your truth,the love you were made of,we all,-so fortunate to be included-I'm part of you,you're part of me!
I LOVE YOU MICHAEL JACKSON,SO INTENSLY,MY WHOLE BODY LIVES TO YOUR BLOOD-FLOW,MY HEART BEATS TO YOUR HEARTBEAT,MY AIR,MY OXYGEN COMES FROM YOU,THE WAY I LOOK THE WORLD NOW COMES FROM YOUR ENDLESS BROWN OCEANS OF YOUR EYES!!!!
I ADMIT,THE BOTTLE OF PEELS WAS SO TEMPTING THE DAY YOU LEFT!!! WHAT DID PREVAIL SO THAT I STILL AM ALIVE?
My belief to God is absolute,nevertheless,I was afraid of my last day on Earth,I was afraid I weren't worthed Heaven!
THE DAY YOU LEFT,I KNEW! THE PLACE IN HEAVEN IS ALREADY EARNED BECAUSE YOU ARE THERE! I DON'T INTEND TO LOSE THAT PLACE,NO MATTER WHAT!!!!
I LOVED YOU BEFORE,I LOVE YOU NOW,I'LL LOVE YOU ENDLESSLY TILL THE DAY I'M GONE FROM THIS PLANET AND I'M COUNTING DOWN DAYS TILL I FINALLY JOIN WITH YOU AND BECOME A WHOLE ENTITY AGAIN!!!
I love,love,love you!!!!!!!!!
I could cross a thousand oceans,
I could travel across the galaxies,
I would gladly accept a place in Heaven,
near you,only for you,simply because of you,
Still,I don't need to,just because you live inside me.
I breath-you're my air,
I live-you're my life,
my heartbeat-your heartbeat,
your scent nearby me,
your aura,your love!
Thank you,Michael,for the most mature year of my life!
I'll love you,always!!!
I'm humbled in front of MICHAEL JACKSON's very existence!
Humbled and extremely proud for he gave me the joy and honour to have lived along with me!
The legacy he left ,extreme! His achievements,stunning! His awards,countless!
I'd so much love to see him being awarded with a prize he didn't have the chance to receive whilst alive!
THE NOBEL PEACE PRIZE!
Not that he is in need of it!Cause MICHAEL JACKSON has already earned the EARTH and HEAVEN!
HE DESERVES IT THOUGH!
Humanity ows to grant him with this award,in recognition for his philanthropistic efforts,for our generation and the generations to come will know that MICHAEL isn't only the exquisit and unique entertainer,musician,dancer but also the most wonderful,most loving,caring and exceptional humanitarian!
I strongly support his nomination for the NOBEL PEACE PRIZE and it is my obligation to ask that all of us who love MICHAEL and aknowledge his contribution for a better world,a better future,will sign the following petition,so as to make the NOBEL COMMITTEE consider to change the rule which says that a deceased person can't receive a NOBEL PRIZE!
WITH MUCH,MUCH,ENDLESS AND UNLIMITED LOVE FOR THE MOST BEAUTIFUL ANGEL THAT HAS EVER LIVED ON EARTH!
I was so much longing for the MICHAEL OPUS to arrive.I couldn't see the moment !
Finally,that moment came.The e-mail said:It is being shipped,estimated day of delivery,Friday,8th,January.My agony was at the tops.
You can imagine how I felt when mu husband entered home,carrying the box in his hands,three days earlier than I expected it.He urged me to open it,only because he didn't know the content of it.
My hands were shaking.I unwrapped it as gently and smoothly shaky hands could.My heart's treasure was inside it ! I had to use my husband's help to get the OPUS out ! It is heavy,huge ! I just touched it,carressed it !!! anything else,I was unable to do .
It had to be the next day,by noon,when I took the decision to open the red coverage and take the OPUS out.Black colour on the exterior,The MOONWALKER's gracious,delicate shilhouette on both the coverage and OPUS front !
I started changing pages !One by one,images of MICHAEL,from child to adult,images giving the sense he is about to pop out and stand in front of you !
I cried,MICHAEL is so alive in it !
Reading the witnesses of his colleaques,his friends,the witnesses of people who have actually met him,THE LEGEND,THE ICON,THE MYTH,THE GOD,THE MAN ! I'm meeting THE MAN,THE HUMAN !THE MAGNIFICENT MAN,THE PERFECTIONIST,THE PERFECTION !
I'm stuck on these pages,reading,learning,sucking knowledge for him, from him.....!!!!!!!! Getting acquainted with MICHAEL is evidence of why I love him so much !!!!
I'm the fragile now,afraid should he leave these pages and hug me,I'll break into billions of small particles.!!!
Seeing him as an icon,gives you the benefit of admiring him from the distance,through this OPUS is getting the chance of meeting him face to face,which is an entirely different feeling!!!
HE IS MORE MAGNIFICENT,MORE ALIVE,CLOSE IN A WAY I HAVE ONLY BEEN IMAGINING !!!!
I CAN'T BUT LOVE HIM MORE !!!!
I CAN'T BUT CRY EVEN MORE !!!!!!!
Have you seen what you've done to me?
Is it six months that have passed over or six centuries?
I received so much LOVE,LOVE that comes from your HEART,it simply hurts!
You think this makes it easier to cope with your absence?
How fooled you are!
It only makes me love you more,makes me hurt even more!
Can you see the flood of tears running from my eyes?
One thing only MIKE,one sweet kiss placed on your fragile cheek
from she,whose love is unlimited for you!!!!
My MOONWALKER,my eyes were endeavouring the sky scenery on New Year's Eve.They were,impatiently waiting to see you,dancing your own magical,perfect moves on the Moon.A Moon which on that particular night was more glorious than other nights.A FULL MOON-A BLUE MOON-I saw and my voice disappeared,my sight was thrilled,my very existence uplifted,carried over Earth,on the bridge you created between it and the Moon.
I had the priviledge to observe a halo,that orange-ish halo around your Moon,had the chance to see the emerge,the halo in a form of a heart and got astonished.How couldn't we see you are nothing less than an Angel,a MOONWALKER!
Your glory is so obvious,that halo is God's gift to the eyes of them whose souls know.Know the truth of your presence.Your physical appearance is no longer amongst us,but you're here,with your LOVE bigger than before.
Oh,yes,every night you're dancing on that MOON,on New Year's Eve you gave all your passion to please humanity,your firm as much delicate body,your etherial shilouette spinning around in gracility circled YOUR BLUE MOON with HEART-HALO,your HALO,YOUR light brightened the night,gave warmth to your EARTH.
EARTH,MOON,HEAVEN are granded to you by right from GOD.On CHRISTMAS DAY,your sweet,soft,loveable voice was singing birthday hymns to the SON of GOD,under the venerability of the first in command Angel.A unique General,like you've always been,on New Year's Eve your light bloomed out as bright as it is proper to be.
My MOONWALKER,keep on dancing on YOUR MOON,EARTH is rejoycing!!!!
And my heart is loving you more!!!!!!!!
MICHAEL,MICHAEL my MICHAEL.
It's been almost six months since you're gone,my angel.
Ever since,I have,trully,made an effort to turn and listen to the music your friends,your colleagues are being creating,still,
I find that a fact impossible to happen.I can only be an observer,unable to participate.
With all respect to them,life through music ,which can flow within every little cell of my body,comes only from you.
My Michael,your voice,that of an angel,your music,that of God inspired,The glow of your love and soul,noone else can have.
I know now,I would have never be of the need to obtain one of your autographs,
you have already signed on my heart,my mind and my soul.
Yesterday,one friend said:You look more beautiful,better in shape than before.How come?What happened?Are you in love?
In love! If only he knew.
I am IN LOVE,hopellesly,incurably,endlessly,whole-heartedly,unconditionally with the ABSOLUTE,AMAZING,MAGNIFICENT the one and only MICHAEL JACKSON.
I am IN LOVE with the MAN for whom I find reason to endure and live through this life.
I am IN LOVE with the MAN who circulates inside myself,who makes my life bright.
I am IN LOVE with the MAN who changed me into another,better person.
MICHAEL,I AM IN LOVE with you,for now,for before,for tomorrow,for the day after,for always.
I have you near me,beside me,inside me.
THANK you,MICHAEL JACKSON for giving me the utmost honour to live in your time,
for giving me the greatest pride to BE IN LOVE with YOU.
ETERNALLY,IN LOVE WITH YOU.
WHEN I'M FEELING BLUE,ALL I HAVE TO DO,
IS TAKE A LOOK AT YOU....
WHEN I AM REJOYCED,ALL THAT I CAN FEEL,
IS ME WRAPPED WITHIN
YOUR WARM,TENDER ARMS....
YOU WOULDN'T WANT ME CRY,
THE TEAR IS STANDING BY...
YOU WOULDN'T WANT ME STOP FIGHT,
SO I GUESS I'LL HAVE TO SMILE...
MY MOST BEAUTIFUL,MOST HANDSOME MAN,
MY BRIGHT SUN,MY OXYGEN.....
MY ANGEL,MY LOVE,
The world has paused,the Earth just freezed,
The heart no more,no beat, it seized,
The pain of loss,so sharp,so strong,
The knife went straight to heart.
I had this heart,whole,intact,so much confused.
I have it not,not anymore.
Scattered in four,one piece with me,
so tough,so sturdy,it never where before.
The other three,my Angel,you hold.
A sweet awaitness,to be rejoined,unified,
this heart eagers the day to come,
a whole one,the heart,the soul,the mind,
in Heaven,when time reaches.
Be there,for me,for us,
Be there,for now I'm less than half.
Angel of God,Sweet Prince,
as bright no sun can ever be.
Angel of LOVE,God made you,
God sent you,God took you back,
God graced this Planet,
such beauty,words unable to describe,
God deprived us from your sight.
The message sent,Michael you're to be freed,
Come back my child,your mission fulfilled.
His call,our pain.
No loss,just gain.
For you,MICHAEL JACKSON
are not a memory.
YOU ARE A LIVING TRUTH.
Farewell,see you on the other side,when time arrives.
LOVE YOU MOST.
I cannot explain,how deep I feel the pain.
I cannot explain,you left and Earth remain,
so cold,so empty,
colour has gone away.
You're gone,among the stars,
you're free,no more bars,
your gone,who says
life will be the same?
Deprived from you,your shelter'
my beacon is no more,
I can no longer be,no longer feel,nor can I breath.
Wher has the beauty gone?
You left,took it away,everything's grey.
My heart has sank,I only this can say,
I love you more,each and every day.
JUNE 25.Everything around me collapsed.I lost the world.A knife stubbed my heart and cut it into millions of small pieces.For on this day the heart of Earth had just stopped beating.
MAY 15.My beloved,Michael, I didn't understand that day why that hunch struck on me out of the blue.The thought crossed my mind.Is my Michael going to make it after his 50?I realised it then,the day you left.My shock was twice violent.That terrible feeling was coming true.I know it sounds crazy but 40 days before your passing I sensed you were going to leave us.Only I didn't understand it then.
Michael,my Michael,I know you are connected with us really close.Isn't that one of an Angel's characteristics?You see,I happen to believe you were trully an Angel in DISGUISE.Now,my beautiful, wonderful,unbelievably gorgeous Michael,you have finally taken your true angelic form.You are looking over us,you are looking after us,you can freely take care and protect your family,your children,your fans,those who have loved you most.You can,at last, cover us under your protective angelic wings,the ones that God has gifted you with,without having to worry about predators and vultures to hunt you anymore.You have ultimately received what you deserved.The place with a Name.It's called Heaven.
I love you,Michael.I always will.With all my heart.
IT IS THE GREATEST HONOUR TO HAVE LIVED IN YOUR ERA.
YOU WILL BE FOREVER ALIVE,MICHAEL JACKSON.
Tonight I cried,I cried a lot, I prayed, please help me God,
Under the night sky I stood,turned my eyes up and looked,
Towards the south I fixed my sight,There was a star,a bright one,
It might have been Venus,whichever it was,I just stared and stared.
There you were,So beautiful, couldn't help but stare,
Your smile,I saw, Your laughter,I heard,
Your eyes,you looked at me,Sadness and joy I felt.
You said:Don't worry, don't be sad, I'm o.k., really fine,
you'll be all right, soon.
I started crying, hot tears droppped from my eyes, reached the ground.
You came close, inside your white vestment,
you wrapped me, you hugged me,
I sensed your warmth and love.
You left,I felt content,
Kept on crying....
My dear,beloved Michael.
As an Angel that I know you are,you must be flying around the world.Therefore,you are bound to have seen all the wonderful things I have been writing for you the past two months in a notebook I created only for you.Nonetheless,by trying to put these lines together,so as to send you this message,is so damn difficult.I cannot help my tears from dropping from my eyes,this is so much true.
My beautiful Angel.what you have achieved,what you have accomplished,can only be described with one word,unbelievable.What you were was unbelievable.Over anything or anyone,far above of all of us,yet so simple.You were simply Michael Jackson,you said for yourself.Simply?I am more than sure that you never realised who you trully were.
You walked,you talked,you danced,you sung,you laughed.In all these and so much more I could have seen no less than God inside you.You were made by His hands,you were Jesus masterpiece,His absolute work of art ,created in order to be sent on Earth to fulfill your mission. The mission to bring people together,to break every racist barrier, to remind us of qualities we had forgotten of, for we live in a world that's become so cruel.God must love us,His children, so much, to decide and grand this planet with you.So divine,so sweet,so caring,so protective,so loving.The word LOVE and you,MICHAEL,were ONE.Through music,God's most caressing instrument to reach people's souls,you were here,non other ever existed before,non other ever after like you,MICHAEL JACKSON.Be absolutely sure,this mission of yours,you have accomplished.
We would never want to lose you,you certainly gone too soon,but,once God sent you on Earth,it was in God's will to call you back in Heaven.I think God understood now you had reached your limits.You went through hell,you stood there bravely,you endured,yet, when all this passed,you were ready to go out to the world once again,not to settle your financial problems,you were preparing to come to us once again.Out of your love for humanity,caring more for people as well as your three very beautiful children,more than you cared for yourself.Michael,you were about to carry on your shoulders the ''burden''of humanity,to carry on your mission in your wounded,hurt,sweet soul of yours.
This,God didn't want.It was enough so far.You've done what you had to do,you suffered what you were put through.No more.As much my heart aches from your loss,I am relieved because you are finally resting.Being the mightiest and brightest Angel of all.Having earned Heaven as well as Earth. This is God's ultimate gift to you,Michael.You deserve it.
Farewell, my beautiful Angel.Be there when the time comes for each human that love you to be called in Heaven,be there to welcome and receive our souls.