October 24th, 2009

This morning I got up very sad, as today is 24th and tomorrow will be another Day Of Tears, as each month. So, with my coffee cup in my hands, I opened my kitchen window and after a couple of weeks of rain and cold, I found out that outside there was a wondeful summer, sunny day: warm as your smile, Michael and I just thought "Tks Michael for this wonderful blue sky. Today is 24th and tomorrow will be the Day of Tears, as each month on 25th... you surley know I will cry a lot and you made me this gift, to bring the smile on my face again ... so thanks a lot for this sunny day..."                                                         

Sometimes I feel so silly, but I cannot avoid to talk with you again and again ...I do the same with my father, so why not with my friend?? So the first thing I will do tomorrow morning wiil be to open the window and to send you a biggggggg kiss. A kiss and a bear hug from the deepest part of my heart, from the hidden part of my soul, the ones you belong to, now as before...
I know you will be always here with me Michael, as you always are, I know you will carry my pain on your shoulders .. I would like to embrace you, to let you forget all the hurts you have had in your life, I would like to be your friend, nothing more but your friend, just to help you to go on, to be strong for you, to cry and to laugh with you, I would like to die instead of you ... I miss you very much and words can never explain how I feel...                                                                                        

Time is running,  but "my pain get stronger every day and all I do is cry ..."  
Hold my hand and guide my steps Michael, .... never leave me...  why cannot my love bring you back with me ..?

I love you always and forever ... I really do ...

Alessandra

I did it Michael, finally I did it, and now you are on my skin ... I got a tattoo and your wings are now on my neck ... I always felt you in my life, in my soul, in my blood and in my heart ... and now you are on my skin also ... as your hand on me ...and when I'm too sad I touch it and it seems to me that you really hold my hand ...

One day I will fly with you again, I'm sure. But for the moment I must be happy with your wings ...

I love you, I love you deeply and I miss you very much, every moment of my life ... do not go away, stay with me, I need your touch in my life ...hold my hand and guide my steps ...

Alessandra

Last night (04th sept.) seemed to me the first one without you ... and, if possible, I missed you more ... I hope you are happy now, I hope you can fly, finally free ...

But do not forget to come to all of us just to say hallo, as we all miss you very much and your loss cuts like a knife. My broken heart still needs your touch, I still need your presence in my life.

I love you Man, "I just can't stop loving you" ... Hold my hand, keep me in your arms and maybe in the future I'll be able to fly with you ...forever..

ale

I love you Man, I cannot let you go, please do not go away ..I need you, I need your soul, I need your voice, your words, your presence in my life ... do not go away from me, I need your touch...you gave me your joy and your energy for all my life, and now I can just give you my tears back ...

I love you so much ...

Alessandra

Dear Michael,

I shared with you more then 30 years of my life, your are always been a frind for me, a friend with whom I walked on my way ... your music has been the soundtrack of my life, your songs have been my son's lullabies, and your joy and energy always gave me joy and energy. I fought for you when was the time to do it and I cried with you, when you was too sad to live .. you held me in your arms when I was down and I did the same with you, your shoulder was always ready for my tears .....now I'm walking alone ...

Dear Michael,

If I could have my last words for you, I think they would sounds in this way:

"Open your eyes, Man, and look into mine ... Can you see I'm here for you? Can you see how much I love you? Can you see that I'm here waiting for you? Take my breath to breath again, take my heart beats, and make your heart beat again...take my life and start living, Guy...I'm just one, you are The One...You can live for me also ...but I cannot without you..."

Dear Michael,

I'm looking for you in the sky, for your dance in the clauds and I'm speaking with you through the wind ... but "..my pain get stronger everyday.." ..."..and all I do is cry .." Sometimes I hear your voice saying to me "Stop it, don't be so crazy ....start living again ..." but I cannot ... I miss you, Man, I miss my Friend, the one of an entire life and my way is now lonely...

Dear Michael,

I know I need a rest from you now, but I'm not able to stop to think of you, each single moment of my day and my night ... you've held my hand for such a long time, and I don't know anymore which is my way now ...my soul is empty and dark, my heart is like a stone ... you place is here, my dear Friend, and should you never need it back .... I will be here, waiting for you..!

Dear Michael,

I know that somewhere, somehow, one day I will meet you .... and then I will tell you all this, we will laugh together off me ... we will sing together and you will dance for me again ...but for the moment I have to keep you in my heart...It's not enough, you see, to cope with my pain that seems really to be neverending ...

Dear Michael,

These are the reasons couse I love you, these are the reasons couse I've always been your fan for all these long years, and there are much more reasons in my heart ...but I will tell them to you directly, looking into your eyes and waiting for your stroke ...

Dear Michael,

Now I'm screaming to the world:  "This is My Friend, I'm proud of him, and for him I’d do everything, I’d give him my own life, I don't need my life without him ..."

Dear Michael,

I love you, but I know, you love me more...

Alessandra