Hello everyone!  Hope you all are doing fine!

Thought I would drop by tonight and share a little something. 

From me to everyone here, and Michael too! :)

I love you all! <3

And Happy Holidays! 

HUGS!

-LyDia           

PS: Isn't this picture just adorable!?  I would hug him.. :3                                                

A Simple Hug- 

There's something in a simple hug
That always warms the heart;
It welcomes us back home
And makes it easier to part

A hug's a way to share the joy
And sad times we go through,
Or just a way for friends to say
They like you 'cause you're you

Hugs are meant for anyone
For whom we really care,
From your grandma to your neighbor,
Or a cuddly teddy bear

A hug is an amazing thing -
It's just the perfect way
To show the love we're feeling
But can't find the words to say

It's funny how a little hug
Makes everyone feel good;
In every place and type,
It's always understood

And hugs don't need new equipment,
Special batteries or parts
Just open up your arms
And open up your hearts

By: Johnny Ray Ryder Jr.

Hello There!

I've been thinking about today, and what would happen to Conrad Murray.  I was so interested in everything and the first thing I did when I got home from school was turn on my television.  The  screen showed "FOUR YEARS IN JAIL" and I knew exactly what had gone down.  I have to admit when I heard the verdict about 24 days ago live, I indeed felt a little empty inside, but a little satisfaction when the word "GUILTY" bounced around in my ears, just to make sure I was hearing right.  Michael can't be brought back, but we can still spread the L-O-V-E he had for his family, friends, fans, and the world, and love him, as we do.

But when I saw that four years could possibly change into two, that's what stopped me in my tracks.  Turns out it's good behavior and successfully serving time, plus time already served.  So, if you have four years and you serve time, 4/2=2.  But who knows?  Anything is bound to happen. 

I think four years would do Murray good and I'd like to say I was outraged at the documentary, Michael Jackson and The Doctor on MSNBC.  Yes, I watched that documentary, and I was balling my hands into fists at some parts, but two of the parts that made me mad was Conrad Murray saying "I do not feel guilty, because I have not done anything wrong." and the one part shot at one of the defense attorney's home, and one of them remarks something along the lines of,  "What 50 year old sleeps with a baby doll?  He's weird,  Everything about him is weird."  It pi**ed me off greatly.  Now why say that?  Did not Michael go through enough?

What a year 2011 has been, don't you agree??

Dearest Michael,
I love you more!!
You've really touched my heart... <3
, LyDia(;
 

Anyway, before I turn loose for the night, I wanted to share a poem I wrote for Michael... I wrote it on 26 November 2011.  Hope you like it!  It was whatever came to mind that moment.

How did you know
In the dusk-darkened room,
My soul yearns for your embrace?
How did you know
My heart yearns for your love
When I feel alone?
How did you know
I reach out for your hand
Through my busy, rainy days?
How did you know
I feel your arms hold me close
Even now?

I feel you all around me.

I should be the one bowing.
Not you.
In my feeling,
I should be the one bowing to you,
Not you bowing to me.

Did I dream like you?
My fears twisting every dream I have started to dream
Starting with the day my fears became very much so.
It hasn't happened, and I don't want it to.

One day,
It would rain sunflowers
With petals radiant as the sun.
It would snow diamonds
With glistening reflections
Of our happy moments.
It would color the sky star lily pink
Which would mark the end of the day
And in your arms, in the Giving Tree, I fall asleep.

I Know
One Day
We'll Fly
Across Skies
Beyond This
Moment Of
Now.

Eternal.
Forever.
Infinity.

It's Like
You're There
Inside My
Heart.
We're
Inseperable
Nothing Will
Tear Us
Apart.

Someday,
When Everything
Else Seems
Dark, We've
All Got
Each Other
To Hold
As One
Big Happy
Family.

I
Love
You
More.
I Love
Those Four
Words In
A Sentence
Together.

And
I
End
Here.

I'll
See
You
There.

(This picture is ADORABLE!!  Makes me wanna just cuddle up beside him... :3)

(PS: I know you feel the same way .  Don't be shy, I know it!)

-LyDia(;

♥♥Holding hands with the MJ community.♥♥ Let us all hold a virtual hand for Michael and his family and comfort each other while the last stages of this court is in motion. If you are holding hands with your fellow MJ fan, then repost and pass it on and let them know...Let's keep the faith everyone. Justice 4MJ our♥♥ King of Hearts...♥♥for life. ♥♥

♥♥♥JUSTICE FOR MICHAEL!!!!!!!!!!♥♥♥

Since it being so close to Halloween, I decided to be a zombie for Halloween... If only I could afford a Thriller jacket... Haha. :P

If I get any pictures I might post 'em.

Anyway, in my eyes, Ghosts has grabbed my attention this Halloween.  I going to watch it a lot until Halloween, and still from then on.

I can relate to Maestro in many ways ^_^  People don't think we're normal, and we're both very mysterious.  And we can do neat tricks too!... only I can't make ghosts appear before your eyes... I'm leaving that one to Maestro! XD

Halloween is my favorite holiday, and it's not just because of the free candy we beg for at peoples doorsteps.  I love the costumes and the erieness of Halloween.  And, I like doing the Thriller dance. :)  And vampires, you can't forget about the vampires, and the ghosts, goblins, witches, and zombies.  And this year... I get fake blood with my costume!!!!

Since my mother won't let me scare the wits out of anyone, I guess I can side with my older brother, who, for Halloween, is just going to wear a knife-headpiece.

And then there's candy.  Ha Ha.  Like I really need more to make me Off The Wall (get it?  Haha...!)

But most importantly, there's the big transition from Halloween to Christmas, my second favorite holiday, but I'll wait to talk about Christmas until they start to play Christmas songs on the radio.

Happy early Halloween Michael!!! :)  I love you!

And a happy Hallows Eve to my MJTP people!!!

"You're right. I do like scaring people, yes. But it's just for fun. Anyone here like games? Hello?! Game Time!!!"

"Did I scare you???"

-Michael Jackson

With the love. L-O-V-E.

LyDia:)

"No Matter What They Told You
You're Not Alone
I'll Be Right Beside You, Forevermore..."

"You Are Not Alone,
For I Am Here With You
Though You're Far Away,
I Am Here To Stay
You Are Not Alone,
For I Am Here With You
Though We're Far Apart,
You're Always In My Heart.
You Are Not Alone..."

Dearest Michael,

I've been keeping up with the trial, but I've also been keeping myself occupied for a little while because I know you wouldn't want us to be scared of what they show and instead, carrying on the legacy we come to know as you.  Listening to your music and loving you like we do....  As I want to see justice just like many of us here, I'm going to stay strong throughout this entire trial.  Keep The Faith... Justice For You, Michael.

Yesterday they showed a new autopsy picture, and I have to say, it did scare me a bit, as did the last one.  I thought I was going to cry because of your condition when the picture was taken.  And I thought, "Why did they show this?!  I know this should help the prosecution, but did they have to show it like that?"  It was you undressed, privates blocked with a big black square, and just your shell, lying there.  It frightened me.  I was lying on my bed and I just grabbed hold of my quilt and just started gasping.

And there are some times where I feel like I need a hug.  Because "I get lonely sometimes, I get lonely..."

And then there are some times where I miss dreaming about you at night. "You are all I need in my life....You are all I dream of here at night..."

And sometimes, I just tell you I love you because I love you, and "I Don't Know What To Say...My Head's Spinning Like A Caurosel..." I'm Speechless when it comes to you... I love you so much!

"When All Life Is Seen As Divine, Everyone Grows Wings.". Remember that quote, from "Wings Without Me" from your book, Dancing The Dream?  It's hanging in my room, in a frame.  I made an almost calligraphic-like writing.  It's really pretty and I still get the weirdest reactions.  My brother and my mother looked at me funny when they saw it.  All I said was "Yes.", because they read the quote aloud in a tone of question, and I laughed at them.  What they don't know, but I learned, about you is that you were spiritual, and I like that. :)  I thought that was a spritual/inspirational quote, and since I had written "Wings Without Me" down on paper, I thought to look at tht to find the right quote.  The last quote I had hanging up was "I was born to never die.  To live in bliss, to never cry, to give my love without a sigh, this is my dance this is my high, it's not a secret, can't you see?  Why can't we all live in ECTASY?"

Besides the trial, I've been preparing for two performances.  My high school choir is having their fall concert tomorrow and Friday and I'm really excited!  And I've been caught up in study.  I had an Advanced Placement Human Geography test today and I have a Honors Algebra test tomorrow.

And now, I have some random stuff to say xD
It's because of you, Michael, I have urges to climb trees, but I can't climb trees where I am
It's because of you, Michael, I am eye-balling pianos everywhere and when I have the chance to play some random notes.
It's because of you, Michael, I am starting to dance.  I used to never dance, but I like to dance in my bedroom to your songs.
It's because of you, Michael, I am writing fanfiction...which is going well. :)
It's because of you, Michael, I moonwalk and slightly sideslide in gym class when no one is looking and talking to you when no one can hear me whisper to myself except for you. (AppleHead... That became my nickname... xD)
It's because of you, Michael, I love you, the world, and everyone in it..."You and me and the entire human race..."

I pray for you and your family at night during the trial.. :)  It's a nice thing to do, right?  Pray for people.. ^_^

I love you, Michael...So much.

My angel of music...

From this day on, now and forever more, you'll be in my heart.

I love you more.

I love you all.

With the love. L-O-V-E.  JUSTICE 4 Michael!!!!

LyDia :)

Dearest Michael,

Like any other fan, I have questions about this too...

I watched as much as the beginning of Dr. Muarry's trial today as I could and I have to ask... what really happened between you and Conrad Murray?

Through all of today's testimonies to the audio tape (which tore me apart... I cried on my brother's bed because what I had heard.)  At first, I wasn't sure that 'sluggish' (as was described) voice was your voice, but when I read what was being said, in an instant I was tuned, I knew it was you, in and I just cried.  I couldn't believe my ears to be honest.  I was like "What the heck did he do to you?"  and the simple word, "Why?  Why was it going on in the first place?"  During Kenny Ortega's testimony, he mentioned a letter he wrote to Randy Phillpis(?) regarding his concerns over your health.  HLN, being HLN, cut to commercials when Kenny was reading the letter, and all I really heard of it was something like "Tonight I was feeding him, I wrapped him in blankets, and he had chills." and some other things along those lines.  And then what really got to me was the two pictures they showed.  They had a picture from the 24th and the 25th of June 2009.  The 24th showed you rehearsing Earth Song and the 25th...Oh my God, I could NOT believe what I saw... YOU, in that hospital bed, and knowing you had probably already left your body to be in Heaven,  I cried more.  My responce was "Oh my God... Oh my God..."  and I was on the verge of tears, until I felt one stroll down my cheek.  I am keeping up with this trial to the best of my ability, because I want to see how this trial turns out. I guess something new will come out each day.  A new thing every day... I guess that's what they say.

  I am keeping you, your family and fans in my thoughts and prayers as we go through this as one, big, MJ family.

I wanted to share a song with you too. Maybe you have heard it, maybe you have not. It's called "You'll Be In My Heart" by Phil Collins. My school's choir is performing this song as one of our fall concert pieces, and our concert is in less than three weeks. We are not only singing it, but we will also entwining it with sign language to the best of our ability. When I listened to the intro to the song, I thought "This would be something Michael would sing, I just know it." and as I kept listening, because it was the first time I actually looked at the lyrics, I thought "Yes, Michael should have sang this song! It sounds like a song he would sing to his children and fans alike." And I smiled to myself.

COPY AND PASTE LINK INTO SEARCH BAR: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V35oRyAMmtU&feature=related

Come stop your crying
It will be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight

I will protect you
from all around you
I will be here
Don't you cry

For one so small,
you seem so strong
My arms will hold you,
keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart, always

Why can't they understand
the way we feel
They just don't trust
what they can't explain
I know we're different but,
deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other,
to have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you've got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on,
Now and forever more

Oh, you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart, always
Always 

With the love. L-O-V-E...
LJ

 Michael Jackson sang, the world hoped.

Michael Jackson danced, the world smiled.

Michael Jackson laughed, the world laughed.

Michael Jackson died, the world cried, but sang, danced, and laughed because we know that's what he would've wanted.

Michael Jackson was Michael Jackson, and always will be.

We are all Michael Jackson when we cry, sing, dance and laugh

♥

Michael, We Love You Most.

Rest In Peace.

1958 - 2009

I just had to share some stuff with you people...And Michael.

...And then you forget what you wanted to say and you're stuck trying remember what you were going to say.  Doesn't that ever happen to you?

Well first of all, I've wanted to listen to Michael's version of the song "Ain't No Sunshine" and now I found it.  It's been stuck in my head all day, like many other of Michael's songs like "Don't Walk Away", "Got To Be There" and then I sang "Rockin' Robin" to myself.  The songs will just pop into my head, like "Lady In My Life" will pop in during gym and "You've Got A Friend" will pop in during lunch, when I am normally by myself, and I wouldn't be thinking about anything.  They just *pop* in.

Second, I have a tip.  If you're presenting a map to a bunch of people, if you're not in the mood for negative comments about Michael, don't pick Neverland Ranch as a map.  I did, and holy cow you wouldn't believe what they said about Michael... It was horrible! I had to pick a map for a project in my Advanced Placement Human Geography class and I chose the map for Michael's Neverland Ranch and I had to present it to the class, and when I did (which was like, last week), everyone made really cruel jokes about Michael and it was just awful...Like, when the teacher pointed to the main residence, plus with the fact that it was classified as an amusement park, someone said "Yeah, that's where he got his amusement." and everyone laughed.  It was just rude, hurtful comments. I almost cried, and it hurt me.  So I had a thought, "I bet Michael felt this way in 2005, when he was put on trial.  This must be what it felt like for him, just horrible, when people say that about him.  I wonder if it is possible for him and I to feel the exact same way, even though this was six years ago, and back then I was blind to him."  

I hate the ridicule I recieve from my older brother about my love for Michael, and his imaptience for me to finish what I'm writing. "I'm not going to wait for you to finish writing about Michael freakin' Jackson."  That's what he said, and he just called Michael 'stupid'. "I'll be back in ten minutes (10:00PM EST), so just finish your stupid letter on your Michael Jackson editorial and don't you start a chapter that you can't write in under ten minutes."  What kind of older brother tells that to his younger sister?  And in such a nasty tone? :'(  

Why is it at these moments I feel so helpless?  It's at these moments I long for Michael to comfort me, and at these moments it takes more than a photo or a song... A hug, maybe?

I wanted to share a song I found... It's called "Good Enough" by Evanescence.  This song has meaning to me, and I always listen to it when I'm upset, and then I listen to some of Michael's songs.  I hope you all like it....And it made me think of Michael sometimes.  About how people were pushing him to do what they wanted him to, and if he wasn't 'Good Enough'.

Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.

Drink up sweet decadence.
I can't say no to you,
And I've completely lost myself, and I don't mind.
I can't say no to you.

Shouldn't let you conquer me completely.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
Can't believe that I feel...

Good enough,
I feel good enough.
It's been such a long time coming, but I feel good.

And I'm still waiting for the rain to fall.
Pour real life down on me.
'Cause I can't hold on to anything this good enough.
Am I good enough for you to love me too?

So take care what you ask of me,
'cause I can't say no.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kw2Ic_2XdVQ&ob=av2e

With the love. L-O-V-E... :3
-LJ:)

Hey there Michael!

Sooooo...  How does it feel being 53?  Lolz. :]

Happy Birthday!!!! 

I sang "Happy Birthday" to you when I came home from school today, after I randomly sang the national anthem and my state song.  If you heard any of the songs before I sang "Happy Birthday" to you... I'm so sorry.  Just Kidding!  I know you wouldn't want me to say that. XD

For your birthday, Michael, I drew you a picture.  It's of you holding 4 different balloons.  One is a circle that says "Happy Birthday!", one is a heart, one is a smiley face, and the last is an odd almond shaped balloon with the number 53 on it.  In the back, I drew the gates of Neverland the best I could, and I drew a globe being held by two different hands (one is black and the other white, like on the cover for Heal The World), and a peace sign, colored like the OLODUM peace sign from They Don't Care About Us.  You have on what you would wear when performing Billie Jean, you know, your mother's sparkly jacket, your signature glove, a white V-Neck, and black pants.  It was my first attempt at drawing some non-anime people, and I think it came out better than I thought.  I wish to get the picture on here when I can, as the ones I drew for the 2nd anniversary of your Spiritual birth, but I'm unable to do so at the time.  So I'll be real happy when I can show everyone what I drew for you.

I want to say "Thank You." for changing my life.  Words can't begin to describe how much a part of my life you have become.  Through all the good and bad times, I can look to you, and be motivated.  It's like a magician, you know.  They always entertain you with some of the best tricks, and you feel better.  It's as if the magicial waved his wand and took the grief away.  It's a wonderful feeling!  But then, there are times when it must take more than that to patch up my shattered soul.  I like to imagine you holding me, protecting me against every fear and degrading comment.  My older brother seems to like to ridicule me and make mean jokes about you.  It gets to me when I know it shouldn't but I really can't help it, you know, because he is my brother.  He said things like "You're addicted with a dead man.  Don't you find that odd?  Strange?  Obsessive?"  and I said, "Nope.  Not at all." and then he had some comment after that about and I couldn't take it anymore.  

Birthday's are fun, don't you think so?  I remember when you were on tour in... Denmark (?) and they brought out a big cake and everyone sang "Happy Birthday!"  It put a smile on my face and I kept your smile in mind as I went through my day, sneaking moonwalks into my walking when I was in gym this afternoon.

Once again, HAPPY 53rd BIRTHDAY, MICHAEL!  I <3 U!

With the love. L-O-V-E... <3
LJ:]

PS: You should've seen this coming... >;)
~Applehead LJ

This is a rare pic I found on FanPop from the BAD Era.  It's Michael wearing glasses. :3  <3  Doesn't he look adorable???

My radio wakes me up in the mornings. This morning, "Waiting on the World To Change" by The Ealges was ending, and then "Beat It" came on. After it finished, the radio person goes, "That was Michael Jackson, celebrating his 52nd birthday." It made me giggle, because it's your 53rd and I messed it up too. I actually thought 52nd for a second as well, and it was actually funny, because I had to use my fingers to count how old you are.. Silly me! XD  But I saw a mix of 52 and 53, and I guess it got to me.

Thursday June 30, 2011...

I've been on the MJTP for a year!  I'm very happy I joined this wonderful portrait, and I'm very happy I'm a part of it!

I've met a lot of people in the year and I've made some new friends just like me.  

It makes me...Well, SPEECHLESS, when I get on here.  It's always a pleasure to get on here, and I try to get on when I can.  

What I love the most about this place is that we can come together and not be bothered by haterz...It's like a treehouse, a club...Where we can be ourselves and express our love of our Beloved, Michael.

I thank Michael because...Well, he's Michael!  What more can I possibly say?  I couldn't go ONE day without hearing his voice or seeing a picture of him.  He's one of the best people that ever roamed the Earth, and when you think about it, he's just like us.  He was human, and so are we.  He did everything he possibly could to help the world.  I never believed in the tabloids, even before he physically died (I'm saying that because I believe he is SPIRITUALLY alive, and is with each and every one of us).  You are an angel, Michael. :)

Michael's my Angel Of Music, like Erik is to Christine [From Phantom Of The Opera].

At the moment, I am writing MJ fanfiction, and I admit that's the reason I haven't been on in a while.  I have a lot of fun doing so and if you'd like to read my stories, you can do so by going here (copy and paste into your search bar):
http://www.mjfiction.com/viewuser.php?uid=1054
Writing and drawing are my personal tributes to Michael.  I'll try to get some pictures uploaded when I can do so.  

And though I could do without the constant negative, almost "hater like" remarks from most of my family, I love them too. ^-^

Everyone says I'm obsessed, they even say I'm taking my obsession "too far", but when you're talking about Michael, there's no such thing as "too far". ;)

Michael, what would I do without you?  I really don't know how I could live, not knowing about you.  You Are My Life, and I Just Can't Stop Loving You.  You showed me how to view the world in a different and beautiful way.  You taught me to "Heal The World" and make it a better place.  I can Never Say GoodBye... You've become part of who I am today, and I'm very thankful.

You've inspired me so much, Michael, I have a dream.   I plan on mending most of my stuffed animals over the next few years, and buying some more stuffed animals, and when I can do so, instead of selling them at a garage sale, in your name, I would like to one day visit a nearby hospital and give these stuffed animals to sick children, so they may have a friend to cuddle up with, and .  But since I can not so so just yet, I'm keeping this dream close to my heart, right next to you.

""So what is my life
If I don't believe
There is someone to watch me
Follow my dreams
Take all my chances, like those who dare
And what of our world
What does it become
When the damage is done
And you held out, you said no, you stand up

Only God knows
That it's all in the game
It's all in your name
Carry me to the gates of paradise
They're the same
 It's all in your name..."'
~Barry Gibb and Michael Jackson- All In Your Name

So, to conclude my little letter...

In Michael's words: "I love you more!" 

With the Michaelish Love. L-O-V-E...
LJ:)

 February 1, 2011......

Had another MJ dream last night (Janusry 31, 2011). Thought I'd share it with everyone. I think what I'm gonna do is put my MJ dreams here.  

I was in some place, and I don't know if I was getting blood taken or getting medicine, but they had a syringe and was gonna stick it in my arm. I kept covering up my arm and yelling "No! Don't!" and I started crying (I'm very terrified of needles)...and when the nurse couldn't take my complaining, she called for another person, and so Michael (Bad Era, Dressed in a doctors uniform) came over to where I was and said, "Calm down. Its OK." and takes the syringe from the one nurse. Then he looked in my eyes (because looking in someones eyes is the best way to let them know you're not lying) and said, "I'm not gonna hurt you. I promise." and chuckled. So of course, then I trusted him, why would I not trust Michael? So I uncovered my arm and let him stick the syringe in my arm. It didn't hurt...it was like all the pain was taken from my body, like his voice became my anesthetic. Then after he pulled the syringe out, he hugged me. He smiled and laughed, "See? I told you it wouldn't hurt!"

Then he was at another place, looked like a classroom, and he was sleeping, and still in the doctors suit.  "Childhood" played in the background. I sat in a chair and watched over him....and then I moved my chair (quitely) next to where he was sleeping and fell asleep too. 

Then my alarm clock woke me up and this was what happened....XD

January 20, 2011... I got to come home from school early today because of getting snow, and after I had dinner, I decided to take a nap, and it was a good thing because I had another dream with Michael being in it (this being MJ Dream #5). It was kinda short but I was happy to have had it....

Michael and I were running, playing tag. We were in a vacant field. He was wearing a black fedora, a blue long sleeve button down polo, and black pants, exactly like in the picture below.

We were laughing and having fun but then he yelled, "STOP!", so I did.  When he came over to me, he said "I have a suprise for you."

"What is it?" I asked. Then I felt him put his right hand on my neck. Fearing he was going to tickle me (I hate getting ticked BTW), I started leaning my head to the right, but then he pushed my head back up with his thumb. Then I felt his left hand touch the other side of my neck.. So now both of his hands were on both sides of my neck, his wrists sitting on my shoulders. He starts massaging my neck, which makes me jump a bit. It also make me feel a bit drowsy, then I looked at him, just enough so I can't interfere with what he was doing, and gave him a smile. Then he smiled back at me. 

The dream was over...

I woke up, and I thought about it and realized the surprise was him trying to make me feel better, because before I took the nap, my neck was sore when I would stretch it out, and after I woke up, the weirdest thing...my neck wasn't sore anymore.