Endlessly loving MJ
my sweet hearted Michael,
i miss your smile, your laugh, your warm heart, your loving eyes,your kindness to the sick, to the hungry, to the naked, even to the dying. i miss everything about you and everyday that passes me by, i feel that i'd rather die just o be with you, to be where there is true love. to be with God the very creator of your substance and all that you were and who you were in this life. i watched you become the biggest star in this world and i also watched as you faced so many lies and false aligations and public humiliation by the media and their stupid way of killing ones spirits. i wish i had known you as a friend like the ones that you had, i wish that i could have helped you but i guess when i come home i will see you and finally get to say all that i wanted to when you were here. but now you are not , but you can now be with with us all at one time, you are no longer human Michael but imortal as God himself, i know that you are happier there then you were here, for that i don't blame you. for not trusting, that too i don't blame you this world of media threw you into a state of fear and of the belief that you were all the names they called you, i really can't say what you may have felt but i know one thing and that is what they done throughout the years to you has worn you down like a weight tide to you pulling you futher into a black hole. what more did they think that you had to give when you have given all of you to this world. those who once loved you including the media, now hate you because of the lies that were told about you being a child molester. i just want to tell you that i never believed that you would do that to children, you loved them too much for that, and for them to accuse you when it was never true, i just know that killed you. the fact that your name was ruined by a child that told one lie 1993 and then another in 2005 i know this all pulled you down further and further into a sad state of mind. i could never feel that pain but i know what it is like to be told that you ugly, i know what it is like to be hit and beatin with cord and with objects, i know what it is like to feel hated and to be lonley. i loive alone with no family we reall don't get along well. like you when i would do something everyone loved me but when i had nothing i was nothing, i was talked about, treated harshly by those who were sapposed to love me. i know that all you went though you faought for what you knew was right, you rose up to say i did not do this to a child. i knew all along that you would never do that they just used you as a target because they knew that you had money to buy your way out, but you didn't really need to you were never guilty of that crime i do not why lisa told you to pay the first time i guess she thought that you hiving the money would keep you from going to jail , maybe she was afraid that you would go and she knew too that it was never true. i would never had paid that money, they too it ran. if some one had done anything like that to my son, there would never be enough money to pay for his innence, i would rather see him die, i would kill him. money don't bring justice it pays to get people like Conrad Murray out of trouble. that sucker he really thinks that he will get out of this. i hope and pray that he don't i would be so upset. that is like a killer to use the persons personal life to make excuses for the person's death as he is doing to you Michael. he needs to get a life he will not walk if God has anythign to do with it. another thing i know is that he fears your fans that are jailed all over this world, in his mind he may be saying if i go to jail even for 4 years i know that i will not make it out alive. there are killers in there that loved you Michael and they know the story i am sure that the ones in the jail that he may be going to are just waiting for his foolish tale to get there.
i love you so much Michael and i really miss you. the things that the media are saying are only upsetting us all and making some of us want to dispare over the thought of this Doctor getting off and the chages dropped that would drop every fan on this site man. i would die inse knowing that he got off without being punished for his crime. he made sure that you were dead before he called 911 and made the guard call and tell lies. he admitted to giving you all kinds of meds that day leading to your death and then saying that you were begging him for the Propofol i know that weather that be true or not he still had no right to give that to you, he was not in that field and knew nothing about it. i feel that he did CPR on your bed purposly knowing that it would not restart your heart that way, he is a heart doctor and that looks bad on his life i would never go back to him knowing what he did to you. he should have been in jail already, there is no way that you could have woken up after a an IV drip was put by him in your are and overdoed i know that stuff is very potent and withing 40 sec of a single dolus dose you went out like a light there was not way that you did what he said you did. us fans are much smarter then they know i have done my own research since your death and i know someone who works with it on the ICU and they even said that they would never support what that Doctor said you done it is too impossible for you to had gotten up to hit yourself again.
Michael you wanted to sleep i know that feeling too, i have trouble sleeping everynight. i have meds to help me sleep. he says that he wanted to help you sleep but instead the SOB killed you and is now trying to find a way out when he knows that he done it. then the bloody T-**** that was in the closet tells me by what i saw that he used that to wipe up your blood after pulling the IV out of your arm to try to bring you back if he did or maybe he done that to clear all the eveidence to make it look like he tried to save you but i beileve that he just made it look that way. then the servailence CD was gone and your sister Janet noticed thatone, how would he explain that? he cannot because he know what happened but so does God.
You will live in and through me Mike and i will love you always. when i need to be near you i will hear your music, your love is stored in it all. iloveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyou
forever. till we meet again in the kingdom of heaven. the home of God and his sone our Lord Jesus Christ. we will all meet again soon.
with all my love to my baby Michael Joe Jackson
i love you may your pure soul rest in peace.
JOANNA ANDREA ALISIO