Yeah, a written tribute by me is included in the Michael Jackson Opus. I feel sooo honored!!!=)I am part of the history.

But the sad thing is I cannot affort the Opus so I won't see it, I just have the joy that I am in there without seeing that. Kinda sad but that is life....

Michael Jackson's death didn't or better to say shouldn't change my life cause he wasn't a direct but a indirect part of it through his music and my strong sympthy and respect for him but how can his death touvh me that much?I mean, if his death is making me so sad I don't want to expirience the death of a person who is active in my life. Mr. Michael Jackson your death made me and many many many people sad so if you ever asked yourself who would cry for you if you would leave your world you have your answer.

So should I say goodbye today after this sad burial which brang the tears in my eyes?Which made my heart cry and feel heavy...at the moment I am in a dark whole and feel so bad. I feel a little bit like the day Michael Jackson died. Now I need time....I still don't say goodbye I prefer saying see you in the othe side Michael Jackson.

I have the feeling that the Mount Everest is in my heart cause my herat feels so heavy but I guess it is nothing compared to what his family and his close friends feel right now...I just wish they can go through it and live on in peace especially his children Prince, Paris and Blanket and I wish for myself that I can peace my mind and let the sad feelings go and replace them by a celebration of his life in my heart...I am going to light a cnadle for him this night and I pray to god that I am going to dream of Michael Jackson this night...of himself in front of me not of his music cause I didn't have one dream of him since he died although I am thinking of him everyday. A great dream of him would calm my heart. I wish everybody not to mourn about him anymore and let's light the night for Michael Jackson. This is his day and there should be no darkness.

In memory of Michael Jackson the human and not the King of Pop

So tomorrow I have to say goodbye...after these weeks. I guess I still didn't realize it...I guess because MJ's death didn't really change my life cause he wasn't an active person in my life...what changed is my mood from happy( about him and his concerts) to absolutely sas, that's what makes the whole think so difficult to me. I can start with it after his funeral tomorrow and I am glad that his body finaly will be at the right place. Michael Jackson you have your own dot in my heart.♥

Thank you Michael Jackson for the grat music and the joy you spread in my heart every time I listen to your music and thank you for sharing your love with you fans although you didn't know us. I wished I could give anything back to you but all I can give you is my love and my gratefulness.

The love you founded Michael Jackson is incredible, you even reached me and normally just the people around me touch me but your love is international and that's what fascinated me about you. You are for always at a special spot in my heart♥.

Dear Michael Jackson,

Happy happy happy birthday and wherever you are I hope that our love reaches you.

Best wishes, Helia